Doomed 2006 (especially semester one)

Long time no blog! This time, will it be good news or bad news? Well, read the story below and u'll know:

"It's the 2nd day of exam, he was excited, wondering whether how the exam questions will be like. He was prepared, but not fully, at least it should be sufficient enough to tackle any general questions or whatsoever.
Then, the moment came. It was 10 am. He was still holding the lecture notes, hoping to absorb as much information as possible. He thinks that it is effective as it worked for the past 17 years. Therefore, he believed that it should help this time, at least a bit. Then it was time to go in, to get prepared for the test. He sat at his usual place, as in the back of the class/exam hall. He loves that position, as some kind of phychological manner that will help him in a way or two. Then, the exam began. He was physically prepared (with just a working pen that has less than a quarter ink left), as for mentally preparation, he was unconfident. He sense that there is something wrong, some sort of undesired, irritating, uncomfortable feeling that doesn't seem to work well for him. He got no choice but to do it and hope for the best.

He prayed before he started (he always prays, but with a manner of his own, can't seem to believe he actually prayed eh?). After it, he felt slightly more comfortable. He started to flip open the question paper, hoping to see something that he wishes to see. And then, it really happened. He couldn't answer question one. He skipped. He skipped question two too, and three, four, five.... He knew something was wrong. He proceeded to section B. At least he could answer some of it, but not all. He felt uneasy, probably worried or panicked. Then he try to squeeze all the 'juices' from his brain and manage to write something. But then, there was another problem, time. " 5 more minutes ! " He stared at the answer sheet, noticing that there were still lots of empty spaces. Then, he tried to think and write whatever he could. Nothing came out. He is left with no choice but to tie the answer sheets together, and gave up this test. This was the first time in his life that he couldn't complete an exam! It was a total sadness.

His feelings cannot be described. It was sadness with some happiness (the exam is over with it lousily answered), some confidence with some regrets (confident that there is no hope and regretting why he hadn't done better), some words coming out his mouth without passing through the brain (!@#@$#%^$%&, well maybe not that bad, just some expression of unhappiness), some self hatred with self caring (scolded himself what has happened to him and why didn't he did it well but love himself of being the him he is) and some other feelings that couldn't be expressed in words.

He wanted to cry, but couldn't. He wanted to jump down the building but didn't. He wanted to destroy something but daren't. He wanted to scold people (himself) but controlled his temper. He wanted to sleep and forget everything and relax but instead started blogging..."Yupz...so by reading the story, we can conclude that it is bad news, or shall i say, worst news ever! I pity him. His parents finally decided to get streamyx for him as what he wished for since two years ago. But if the results comes out, i wouldn't dare to think of what will happen.

I believe that he was in his worst condition during the exam week. He just couldn't seem to concentrate eventhough he was so interested in that subject. He read the notes and studies some books over and over again but nothing went inside the brain. Well, it went inside, but stayed there for a few minutes. Something is wrong with him, i suggest it is time for him to visit a phychologist.

"TOO BAD, TOO SAD, LIFE IS LIKE THAT !"

i sense that this is a bad year....